After my friend, Stephannie Beman, and I fought all day with formatting the Word document, we got To Have and To Hold as clean as it’s going to get. Earlier today, there were three page breaks in the middle of three different chapters, so we fixed that. Then Chapter 18 was done twice. Fixed that. Then Chapter 18 was switched around with Chapter 19. Look, I don’t know if this is what it’s like when uploading to PubIt, but there was nothing wrong in the documents we uploaded. When I checked the documents we kept making from scratch, they were fine. So I don’t know what the deal is. I never had this problem with uploading to the Kindle or Smashwords.
After what was the eighth upload (yes, it took eight times), I finally got the best preview I could find. There is one page break in the middle of Chapter 22 (according to the previewer), but in the document, nothing is wrong. Let’s hope it’s the previewer being off because that story had been stripped to the bare bones and formatted for B&N. We’ll see. I have a Nook so I’ll be able to see how it turned out when it’s up on the site. All I can say is that Stephannie and I did our best. I have been working on this for almost 10 hours (on and off) and I’m exhausted. I have done no writing at all. 😦
Just a warning for those who haven’t read To Have and To Hold yet: it builds on Eye of the Beholder. A person reported that it’s the same story as Eye of the Beholder. I don’t see it as the same story, but yes, it does build on Eye of the Beholder so there are a lot of similarities. Mary gets amnesia and has to overcome her insecurities and learn to stand up for herself. She never did stand up for herself in Eye of the Beholder. Some people said they had hoped she would have stood up for herself in the first book and I thought it was a good idea, but it didn’t fit that particular storyline.
Eye of the Beholder was comparing what the world views as beauty (the way someone looks) to what truly is beauty (the way a person acts). To Have and To Hold is about overcoming your fears in standing up for yourself. I had to strip Mary of her memories so she could see herself as she really was, instead of what others had told her she was. Then I had to put her back with the people who made her feel inferior, and since she didn’t have her memories, she was able to finally see everything as it really was. Over the years, I’ve become convinced that what we’re used to people telling us in our lives has a great impact on what we believe about ourselves when we’re adults. Sometimes we have to remove ourselves from the situation to see it clearly. The only way Mary was going to break herself out of the situation was to forget.
If that setup doesn’t appeal to you, then you’re better off not reading the book. Yes, I know. What author wants to suggest someone not read her book? An author who doesn’t want to disappoint you. 😉 I did include references to Eye of the Beholder, something I don’t plan to do in Forever Yours, but as Mary got her memories back, she had to remember things that had happened. In Forever Yours, no one loses their memory so there’s no need to go back and rehash the past. Mary’s already learned to stand up for herself. Forever Yours is Dave’s book.
Some people have lovingly commented that Dave is getting an ego too big to handle in these blog posts, and it’s true–the guy is overboard at times. But I plan to resolve that while writing Forever Yours. It’ll be Dave’s turn to feel insecure, and this time Mary will have to boost him up. But hey, isn’t that what marriage is all about? Boosting each other up and finding something lovely in each other even when the rest of the world doesn’t? I can’t say that marriage is perfect. My husband and I have our arguments and wonder why in the world we got married in the first place. But overall, we rely on each other, and we find the better half of ourselves when we look at the other one. Where he’s weak, I’m strong, and vice versa. In July, we’ll have been married for 12 years, and I can honestly say, it gets easier the longer you’re married, probably because you’ve learned to accept the other person instead of trying to change them. LOL