And this proofreading is a major pain in the you-know-what. Ugg.
I feel like I’m climbing up a mountain. The snow and wind are pounding into me, hurling me backwards, and no matter how many times I get back up, I get thrown back. So I’m really at the bottom of this mountain.
It’s not because I need a break. I’ve been on break for over a month now. I’ve done no new writing beyond a couple hundred words in a span of…what…two days? All those posts I have going up with what I’ve done for my first draft blogs were things I wrote back in November. November, people! November! As in, December and this month have been flops.
I got a little leeway, but not much. My pen name’s first draft blog only has enough in waiting to post to get me through a week. After that, I have to get writing. Maybe 500 words a day will be doable.
Return of the Aliens is at a standstill. I can’t get beyond the half of novella 5. *sigh*
I have Brave Beginnings done (thank God) and am just posting a bit every day. That will last for a couple months, according to my calculations. And after that, I planned in a month long break to rest up.
So I’ve readjusted my plan for Feb. I will concentrate on getting 500 words a day done for my pen name and proofread Bid for a Bride and Brave Beginnings. I’m pushing the writing of Return of the Aliens to March.
This is not good. I’ve written new material while proofing books before. My problem is that I can’t get motivated to write. I imagine it’ll be a painful experience to do the 500 words a day. As much as I love the story, I am hating the thought of writing anything right now.
Every time I sit at the computer to write, I get a headache and my brain ‘shuts down’. I get extremely tired. I get up to do something else, and I feel good again. You know you have a problem when you’d rather clean a toilet than write something.
Now, when I say write, I mean creative writing for stories. I can blog my little heart out all day long and still have more to ramble on about. So it’s not all writing that is blocked.
I sense there’s something emotional going on. It could be I’m emotionally drained. That’s harder to bounce back from than physical exhaustion. I just am not sure where the exhaustion is coming from. When I think I know what it is, I resolve that issue, but then I realize it wasn’t the problem. So I don’t know what to do. I hope this problem can be dealt with by March 1 when I’m due to jump right back into writing.